Blogging may help me to say out all my complains, yet i won't disturb anyone to be my listening ear and thinking hard of what things to console me.
As usual work is always quite stagnant and routine, listening phone calls and attending meetings are just parts and parcels of my everyday work, designing structure and being my supervisor 'secretary'.. Sounds interesting but I can't find the 'path' inside the work, I don't wish to be a 'working machine', thats y I want to move on, move on to somewhere where I can see prospect in my career..
Today I finally found out what's the big deal on the 6th of every month~ I'm tired, not sure how long more can I take.. I hate the feeling of Procrastination.. Able to stand by her side is just my wishful thinking. We went through a lot, gave her a lot, but all end up hurting ourselves.. Maybe I'm the one who has the most hurt. We gave each other 心动 once and she gave me the most 心痛 feeling.. I hate listening to sad songs, songs that bring our memories back.. We shouldn't have started to show our feelings to each other so fast when she is still unsure.. I don't blame her at all, I just have to face the fact and move on. Till this point of time, she is still the most important person in my life.. I hope she will be as xin fu and the smile on her face is always there when we 1st met..
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